“If you never did you should. These things are fun and fun is good.” – Dr Seuss
It’s easy to get so caught up in the end goal that we forget to have fun. Getting stronger, getting faster, beating a previous time, doing better.
It occurred to me recently that the motivation behind some of the most common goals are actually pretty damn negative. I am guilty of getting caught up in that mind frame- the one that basically implies you are not good enough until you reach that next goal. That is so silly.
We ARE all good enough. In fact, we are all incredible, wonderful, amazing, whacky unique indivduals following different paths so isn’t it about time we let go and enjoy the journey?
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I like that their garments last- I’ve run ultra trails, sky runs and trails on rugged terrain and they last. It helps that they are super comfie, light and have a UPF30+ rating that ensures protection from harmful rays.
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That was my New Year’s resolution for 2018 and it really came to the forefront recently.
I hit a bit of a slump at the start of the year.
Having always been genetically predisposition to bouts of depression and anxiety, it is bound to catch up with me every now and again and I entered the year feeling very far removed from myself, which in turn affected my physical performance. It ended up being a catch 22 because I was not performing how I would like to, which made me feel worse about myself.
You get so used to feeling a certain way and it was only a few days ago that it dawned on me that I have been going through a bout of depression and I remembered my resolution.
The band I love the most, Rise Against, have a song that says “how we survive, is what makes us who we are.”
The thing about life, it inevitably ebbs and flows and emotions come and go, like waves, but how we face these challenges define us.
So today I choose to rise out of the ashes. I choose to be strong. I choose to be brave.
Big thank you to the people in my life who have been there by my side, supporting me through it all. VivobarefootVivobarefoot South Africa is such an incredible brand of shoe that has kepy me running strong the whole time.
“When your world moves too fast and you lose yourself in the chaos, introduce yourself to each color of the sunset. Reacquaint yourself with the earth
beneath your feet.
Thank the air that surrounds you
with every breath you take.
Find yourself in the appreciation of life.”
-Christy Ann Martine
Sometimes it feels like my own world moves too fast, sometimes I feel lost in the chaos of life, of the heartache, of the dissapointment.
Time and time again I turn to the trails for healing and this poem resonated so deeply with me.
It was a beautiful reminder to appreciate the beauty and wonder of the world. It’s always there, we just aren’t always looking.
This weekend was a whirlwind of emotions and experiences: breathing takingly beautiful scenery and mountains, joy, love, happiness, anxiety, despair.
Drakensberg Northern Trail is a special race to me. Last year it was my first skyrun and this year I hoped to better my time and to take it all in… but you cannot always predict what is going to happen on the day.
About 19km a loose rock ended in a tweaked knee and strained the ligament. The remaining 20kms I spent in excruciating pain. So by the time I hobble jogged to the end I was in tears and pain, feeling frustrated with myself for deciding to push through the last 20kms and for allowing the disappointment to affect me so badly.
A message from my coach Clinton Hunter of RacePace Coaching really helped put things into perspective though, and its something we could all probably hear at times.
How you handle the disappointment is important and provides you with an incredible learning experience. When things go wrong we don’t appreciate the massive mental barrier we have overcome, but sometimes we need to celebrate those victories too. And celebrate out mental toughness.
So I finished the race in the same time and position as I did last year- which is not what I was hoping for, but I finished it and sometimes we need to allow things like that to be good enough as well.